Informal and personal information about me: my self-description, origins, childhood, and adult life.
People deserve to know where ideas originate, I believe. It started with necessity: I managed online communities and was asked personal questions often. It was easier to answer them once, and to link to when needed.
Being an artist almost requires from me to be sincere in my self-presentation. Being mysterious would probably be much more attractive and safe, but I want you to understand my art better by knowing how I see myself and the world, and what influenced me.
My students are often very open with me, they invite me in their homes and mention personal matters. To match that friendliness, and to make it easier for you to decide whether you want to deal with me, I will try to tell you enough about myself.
My friends can pick here one or another fun fact about me as well, if I have not joked about it already. Entrusted people helped me to understand myself many times before, and writing about the key moments of my past openly has being enriching and liberating as well.
I cannot tell you everything important though, because I need to guard other people's privacy. I also avoid unnecessary details, and exclude most indescribably blissful or shockingly dreadful moments by generalization. I try to keep the stories short.
Thank you for your attention! It is deeply appreciated.
The short form of my real name is Lena, the only one I use, and
L∃N∀ is my signature art seal. ∃∀- are math signs, which mean "exists"
∃ and "for all"
There was no Unicode character with a line above - logical "not" - for "for all" and the meaning changed from "exist not for all" to almost the opposite, which I find amusing - hope you do too!
My last name, Nechet, means "odd number" in Ukrainian, like -1, 1, 3, 5, 7, ... - integers that cannot be divided by 2 exactly. It is my birth name.
The first 7 defining words (nouns) I could choose for myself should probably be:
- Artist - an abstract fine art painter and portraitist, enchanted by photography and videography. I always knew I will paint, but it took a couple of life-threatening events to make me drop almost everything else and dare to dive into the madness of purposeless creation. I am obsessed with composition and color, have always been.
- Polyglot - as a multilingual person, I spoke several languages, and this experience made my thinking more independent from grammatical and cultural conditioning, I believe. Now, I am acceptably fluent only in three natural languages I acquired in this order: my second native Russian (Русский), German (Deutsch), and English. I fully understand but speak slower in Ukrainian (Українська), my first native. And I have almost entirely forgotten Spanish (Español), in which I was fluent in late childhood while living in Latin America. The need to set my mind free by verbal expression made me a poet at 13, and I used the tool in each language I knew sufficiently.
- Web Developer - I love internet. I was happy with server programming for several years, regarding it as an art without emotions. I still enjoy it now and then. I like its clear logical structures, immediate results, and the practical application of math.
- Investor - I started to invest risky and early, as a student, with currencies and commodities, and later transitioned into mid-term stock trading followed by index funds. My degree is in economics, and this is how I used it. Risk-taking gives me thrills, and I need to guard myself from passionate moves. I dislike being in debt though, so I managed to never have any serious liabilities.
- Fruitarian - long-term, since 18, which suggests a lot about my lifestyle: predominantly fresh fruit-based diet, environmentally-friendly attitude, avoiding buying too much, especially of new wooden objects, etc. I ran large ethical online communities, and still minimally maintain the reorganized Fruitarian's Network.
- Humanist - who can criticize the hell out of the current humanist manifesto :) I am a secular person with a deity-independent moral code. At 18, I was baptized Orthodox Christian in a long ceremony in an old monastery upon a kind request of my grandmother, and remained an atheist. I am a life-long non-theist: agnostic in regard to knowledge and atheist in regard to belief - science and character based. I am simply unwilling to be mentally subordinate. I will protect everyone's rights to believe in anything they want though - for the sake of freedom of mind.
- Female - I am a serially monogamous heterosexual woman, who seeks the depth of intellectual and erotic connection with one man. I am rarely physically attracted to anyone, and seldom meet people with whom I see a potential to experience what I want. Nonetheless, mutual love is not only my "drug" of choice: I prioritized it in life decision making. Friendship is of almost the same importance to me, but the gender plays no role. I am not family-oriented. I do not date casually.
If I would use only a few adjectives to describe myself, I would choose these additional words:
- Happy - most of the time, despite everything. If I am not in a blissful state, it is usually because of actual difficulties in my life. If those are bad enough, which happened many times, I still cannot stay sad for too long, or I soon find ways to force myself out by action or radical change. I started practicing prolonged meditations (zazen, pranayama, kundalini, etc.) early and had the time of my life staring at empty walls.
- Sensitive - in some cases overly so: I used to have an extreme color sensitivity, to the point that I could wear only achromatic clothing for some periods of my life. Once I painted my walls black, another time - my hair (I am blond). Then I had white periods. I can be inexplicably sensitive to words and facial expressions as well.
- Risky - I can take and handle lots of risk for a specific reason. At the same time, I almost never feel adventurous, maybe because I am rarely bored. But in some areas, I can hardly tolerate any risk at all: I maintain an emergency fund, I do not need fun via scare, and so on. I take only few things for granted. I rarely can find comfort in dependencies, which makes me a challenging partner, but keeps me free from drugs. I make it hard to offend me: it enables more precious truth coming my way and decreases my risk to die oblivious .
- Decisive - I tend to make up my mind quickly and permanently. I do not look back with doubts. I prevent myself from having regrets by ensuring that my process of making decisions is maximally all-factors-encompassing and minimally instinctual, and that I stay true to myself at all times.
- Lonely - somewhat, intellectually. Though I am willing to invest a lot in a friendship with a right person, only with a few close friends I can be fully myself, and some of them live far away. In most cases, I need to avoid certain subjects and filter my humor. Out of joy, I spend lots of my time in solitude, but deep human connections are absolutely precious to me.
- Concentrated - I can easily focus on something of my choice for hours at a time. Sometimes I worked on projects for weeks, disregarding almost everything else.
- Intense - my brain demands stimulation and transformation. In silent introspection it is full of visual and conceptual activity, even my meditations on nothingness are singularly intense. In conversations I can be passionately engaged. I attempt to be sincere, even if only in essence. I practiced full truthfulness for many years, but that turned out to be too dangerous. I still believe people deserve kind honesty. Interactions with both smart and kind people energize me more than anything.
- Where do you find meaning in your life?
- What are you capable of achieving?
- When do you feel truly alive?
- What is your passion?
- Whom do you love?
- Who are you?
- And now?
I was able to maintain relative fluency only in three languages at a time. Switching between more than that many is problematic for me. But at various times, I was fluent in five languages in total:
I love you. Я тебя люблю. Ich liebe dich. Я тебе кохаю. Te quiero.
Before five, I spoke mainly Ukrainian, but also Russian. By twelve, I spoke Spanish (reviving it at 27 did not help). I started with German in 1999, becoming fully fluent by twenty-eight, and my real English fluency started with 2010s.
In the past I tried to study French, Chinese, and Japanese - to read poetry and to improve my calligraphic stroke, but did not have enough time to achieve much.
This is a short, slightly disordered summary of my political views, in which I address in short the most commonly discussed political issues. Most of them are subject to change once I am convinced differently. So this is what I stand for:
- Environmental regulations should be improved, deepened, and consistently enforced for the sake not only humanity, but most other forms of life. I am for preservation of large areas of wild habitat and for stable inhabitable ecosystems.
- Societies should invest more in science, sustainable technologies, and education based on critical thinking and creativity, than into unnecessary militarization and bureaucracy.
- I am for innovation and fusion of adaptive elements of cultures.
- Ethical treatment of sentient beings.
- Authority should be questioned: it requires oversight, free press, freedom of speech and expression.
- State and churches should be separated.
- For free markets, smartly regulated, for anti-trust enforcement, and for private ownership of the means of production (i.e. not a socialist).
- Internet service providers should not be allowed to manipulate the access.
- Pro-choice in the first 12-17 weeks, and only encouragingly pro-life after, unless there are significant risks to the woman's or potential child's well-being.
- Contraception should be available to everyone. Birth control, science-based sex education, and more social services should be provided to everyone to help reduce the number of abortions and to control the population growth, so that all children are well cared for.
- I support mixed sex, same sex, and multiple partner marriages of any gender: if people are willing to take the risks of trust and responsibility to enter such civil contracts, the government should not prohibit any union, unless arranged under duress.
- Adoption rights should be determent only by the children's well-being and be based on character and readiness of the potential parents. All future parents should be educated in best practices in child care and about brain development stages.
- Nobody should be physically disciplined, this includes spanking of any kind by caregivers.
- Recreational drugs should be legalized and controlled, the public should be informed about the consequences of the drug use, and the restrictions should be clearly and simply defined.
- What goes on in a private bedroom between consenting adults is no business of the state. Pornography, depicting consenting adults, should be legal for the adult population.
- Voluntary adult prostitution should be legal, with imposition of prophylactic healthcare.
- Purchasing a gun should require licensing and training.
- A war should be permitted exclusively as an act of defense, similar to other offenses against life. Starting a warfare if not attacked should be treated as a mass murder or an attempt of such. The leader of a country should not be able to authorize military force against any other entity without congressional or similar approval.
- The military should not assassinate suspected terrorists in foreign countries.
- Police officers should wear body cameras.
- I am against death penalty.
- In criminal justice, rehabilitation should be more important than punishment.
- I am pro voluntary medically assisted euthanasia with a mandatory waiting period upon a reasonable request.
- Convicted criminals should have the right to vote.
- I support simplification of taxes, and removing tax loopholes.
- I am for extensive support for small business and entrepreneurialism.
- Governments should penalize businesses that mislead the potential customers.
- Universal base income for everyone instead of most welfare.
- Universal science based healthcare with a comprehensive preventative program.
- For due process and due diligence.
Political Compass Infographics:
- Economic Left / Right: Left -4.88 (but fiscally more conservative).
- Social Libertarian / Authoritarian: Libertarian -7.44 (but not too individualistic).
I started to vote as soon as I could, and never belonged to any political party.
These are a few bits of curious information about me:
- I lived apart from my parents from 1 to 5, and was left alone a lot.
- As a child I refused to eat most things I was offered. I disliked ice-cream, but loved dark rye bread and many fruits.
- I started regular fasting at age 13, made it every Friday by 14, then tried 3 days monthly, then settled on something now called intermittent fasting, eating only 1-2 times a day.
- I sleep on hard surfaces like floors, garden furniture, and even tables. I started at 17 along with studying yoga, converted or made m own surfaces, used folded blankets and then yoga mats.
- I started investing in currencies and commodities after participating in a stock trade university game, I did not have access to stock trading.
- Many weekends of my 14th year of life I spent in a bathroom temporally converted into dark room to develop my SLR photographs on film. I lost all negatives.
- In music school, I played polyphony and sang it in a choir.
- In my early twenties I developed a 70-measurements system to make well-fitted elegant clothing. I made male suits and female dresses, attempted to organize production with local factories, and failed.
- In my late twenties I was writing a book on visual memory structuring, it became so complex, I still wonder it is worth finishing.
- In my thirties I designed a framework in object oriented PHP that produced meaningfully formatted content presentation based on keywords. It never found any implementation.
- I have not seen any member of my family of origin for over 12 years.
- Last ears before immigration I lived alone, with a heavy steal panel on my double door.
- I had a pepper spray with me at all times, and was lucky to never have a need to use it.
- After the first six years of immigration I went back to touch the ground, and did not feel at home.
- For all those years and much longer I always carried a card with a significantly modified Bushido code. I still have it.
- In my early twenties, I trained myself to visualize death as a young native American warrior behind my left shoulder - to appreciate time.
- During the same years, I increased the duration of my meditation on point to 30-40 minutes.
- When I experienced my first samadhi, I thought that nothing could top that. I was wrong.
To be continued...