If I would use only a few adjectives to describe myself, I would choose these additional words:

  1. Happy - I am quite joyful most of the time. If I am not in a blissful state, it is usually because of actual difficulties in my life. If those are bad enough, which happened many times, I still cannot stay sad for too long. It feels like I can not allow myself melancholy. Usually, I quickly find ways to force myself out of sadness by action or radical material changes. Luckily for me, I started practicing prolonged meditations (zazen, pranayama, kundalini, etc.) early in youth and had the time of my life, staring at empty walls.
  2. Sensitive - in some cases overly so. I used to have an extreme color sensitivity, to the point that I could wear only achromatic clothing for some periods of my life, was annoyed by paint on buildings, and so on. Once, I painted my walls black, another time - my blond hair. I had periods of white walls and attire. Till this day, you can notice these tendencies in my clothing and minimal home decoration. On top of that, I can be inexplicably sensitive to some words, and especially facial expressions.
  3. Risky - I can take and handle lots of risk if I know the reason why, have considered the range of outcomes, and can initiate the action on my own. The problem is that for the most of my life I could tolerate the possibility of very bad results as well. A few times I actually lived through scary  consequences of my risk-taking attitude. At the same time, I almost never feel adventurous. Maybe, it is because I am rarely bored. In some areas, I can hardly tolerate any risk at all, for example, for fun. I do maintain an emergency fund in three forms at all times, because I do not want to loose any dignity or health. I take only few things for granted because I know I am in risk to loose everything. I rarely can find comfort in anything connected to dependency - it saved me from addictions and turned me into a difficult girlfriend. I take risks to let precious truth come my way - it decreases my risk to make stupid mistakes, or to die largely clueless.
  4. Decisive - in personal matters, I tend to make up my mind quickly and permanently. I do not look back with doubts. I prevent myself from having regrets by ensuring that my process of making decisions is maximally all-factor-encompassing and minimally instinctual (benefiting the species), and does not contradict my intuition. I stay true to myself because life becomes unbearable if I do not. 
  5. Lonely - somewhat, intellectually. Although I am willing to invest a lot in friendship with right people, only with a few close friends I can be fully myself, and most of them live far away. In most cases, even among good friends, I need to avoid certain subjects and try to filter my humor. I spend lots of my time in solitude, by choice, but deep human connections are absolutely precious to me.
  6. Concentrated - I can easily focus on something of my choice for hours at a time. Sometimes I worked on projects for weeks, disregarding almost everything else. It can be quite unhealthy. But when I am distracted and cannot continue for a while, it becomes almost painful to keep in mind all the information needed to restart. It could be very disappointing to forget something important or not to be able to go into the same mindset. I avoid that bother by immersion and fear interruptions. Since I was about 14, I have been aware of my big flaw: if I see the clear end of a project, I loose interest and move on. In my mind, it is done. Another corresponding flaw I have: it is near impossible for me to do something I do not want, unless there is an existential threat of some kind. I think it is called laziness :) Keeping concentration longer allows me therefore to overcome these two limitation to some extent.
  7. Intense - my brain demands stimulation and transformation. In silent introspection, it is full of visual and conceptual activity. Even my meditations on nothingness are sometimes singularly intense. In conversations, I can be passionately engaged. I attempt to be sincere, even if only in essence, because we always need to filter out irrelevancies. For many years, I practiced full truthfulness, but that turned out to be too dangerous. I still believe that people deserve kind measured honesty, even if reserved or challenging. Interactions with both smart and kind people energize me more than anything else.

Defining myself with several words.
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Lena Nechet, artist - Fine art, media productions, language.
San Diego, California , USA ,
Art@LenaNechet.com 323-686-1771