⭕ About Lena
Informal and personal information about me: my self-description, origins, and selected stories from childhood through adult life.
The meaning of my art signature is my first name in alternative symbols. The short form of my real name is Lena, the only one I use, and
L∃N∀ is my signature art seal. ∃∀ - are math signs, which mean "exists"
∃ and "for all"
When I started using my signature online, there was no safe to use Unicode character with a line above (logical "not") for the sign
∀, "for all" - and thus the meaning changed from "exist not for all" to almost the opposite, which I find amusing - hope you do too!
My last name, Nechet, means "odd number" in Ukrainian, like -1, 1, 3, 5, 7, ... - integers that cannot be divided by 2 exactly. It is my birth name.
- Where do you find meaning in your life?
- What are you capable of achieving?
- When do you feel truly alive?
- What is your passion?
- Whom do you love?
- Who are you?
- And now?
The first 7 defining words (nouns) I would choose for myself should probably be:
- Artist - an abstract fine art painter and portraitist, enchanted by photography and videography. I always knew I will paint, but it took a couple of life-threatening events to make me drop almost everything else and dare to dive into the madness of purposeless creation. I am obsessed with composition and color, have always been.
- Fruitarian - long-term, since 18, which suggests a lot about my lifestyle: predominantly fresh fruit and seeds based vegan diet, environmentally-friendly attitude, avoiding buying too much, etc. I ran large ethical online communities, and still minimally maintain the reorganized Fruitarian's Network. Recently I got a chance to start a small orchard, which still requires some foundational work. Before, I supported wild life protection and paid other people to plant thousands of trees, now I have propagated and planted many perennial plants myself. I donate to animal rescue causes and to independent media that educate people about legal changes they can support to make the Earth more life-friendly on a global scale.
- Humanist - who can criticize the hell out of the current humanist manifesto :) I am a secular person with a deity-independent moral code. At 18, I was baptized Orthodox Christian in a long ceremony in an old monastery upon a kind request of my grandmother. I am a life-long non-theist: agnostic in regard to knowledge and atheist in regard to belief - science and character based. I am simply unwilling to be mentally subordinate. I will protect everyone's rights to believe in anything they want though - for the sake of freedom of mind.
- Polyglot - as a multilingual person, I spoke several languages, and this experience made my thinking more independent from grammatical and cultural conditioning, I believe. Now, I am acceptably fluent only in three natural languages I acquired in this order: my second native Russian (Русский), German (Deutsch), and English. I fully understand but speak slower in Ukrainian (Українська), my first native. And I have almost entirely forgotten Spanish (Español), in which I was fluent in late childhood while living in Latin America. The need to set my mind free by verbal expression made me a poet at 13, and I used the tool in each language I knew sufficiently.
- Web Developer - I love internet. I was happy with server programming for several years, regarding it as an art without emotions. I still enjoy it now and then. I like its clear logical structures, immediate results, and the practical application of math. I am painfully aware of the lost of freedom, monopolization, and prevalence of misinformation and junk content on our networks. I try to do my part in fixing it.
- Investor - I started to invest risky and early, as a student, with currencies and commodities, and later transitioned into mid-term stock trading followed by index funds. My degree is in economics, and this is how I used it. Risk-taking gives me thrills, and I need to guard myself from passionate moves. I dislike being in debt though, so I managed to never have any serious liabilities. I believe that financial fluency and access to markets and capital-building instruments are essential rights in a good society.
- Female - I am a serially monogamous heterosexual woman, who seeks the depth of intellectual and erotic connection with one man. I am rarely physically attracted to anyone, and seldom meet people with whom I see a potential to experience what I want. Nonetheless, mutual love is not only my "drug" of choice: I prioritized it in life decision making. Friendship is of almost the same importance to me, but the gender plays no role. I am not family-oriented. My eroticism is directly connected to person's mind. I never dated casually. Now I am surprisingly happily married, to a guy who also was and stays my friend, we laugh a lot.
If I would use only a few adjectives to describe myself, I would choose these additional words:
- Happy - most of the time, despite everything. If I am not in a blissful state, it is usually because of actual difficulties in my life. If those are bad enough, which happened many times, I still cannot stay sad for too long, or I soon find ways to force myself out by action or radical change. I started practicing prolonged meditations (zazen, pranayama, kundalini, etc.) early and had the time of my life staring at empty walls.
- Sensitive - in some cases overly so: I used to have an extreme color sensitivity, to the point that I could wear only achromatic clothing for some periods of my life. Once I painted my walls black, another time - my hair (I am blond). Then I had white periods. I can be inexplicably sensitive to words and facial expressions as well.
- Risky - I can take and handle lots of risk for a specific reason. At the same time, I almost never feel adventurous, maybe because I am rarely bored. But in some areas, I can hardly tolerate any risk at all: I maintain an emergency fund, I do not need fun via scare, and so on. I take only few things for granted. I rarely can find comfort in dependencies, which makes me a challenging partner, but keeps me free from drugs. I make it hard to offend me: it enables more precious truth coming my way and decreases my risk to die oblivious .
- Decisive - I tend to make up my mind quickly and permanently. I do not look back with doubts. I prevent myself from having regrets by ensuring that my process of making decisions is maximally all-factors-encompassing and minimally instinctual, and that I stay true to myself at all times.
- Lonely - somewhat, intellectually. Though I am willing to invest a lot in a friendship with a right person, only with a few close friends I can be fully myself, and some of them live far away. In most cases, I need to avoid certain subjects and filter my humor. Out of joy, I spend lots of my time in solitude, but deep human connections are absolutely precious to me.
- Concentrated - I can easily focus on something of my choice for hours at a time. Sometimes I worked on projects for weeks, disregarding almost everything else.
- Intense - my brain demands stimulation and transformation. In silent introspection it is full of visual and conceptual activity, even my meditations on nothingness are singularly intense. In conversations I can be passionately engaged. I attempt to be sincere, even if only in essence. I practiced full truthfulness for many years, but that turned out to be too dangerous. I still believe people deserve kind honesty. Interactions with both smart and kind people energize me more than anything.
I was able to maintain relative fluency only in three languages at a time. Switching between more languages is not practical for me. But at various times, I was fluent in five languages in total.
I love you. Я тебя люблю. Ich liebe dich. Я тебе кохаю. Te quiero.
Before five, I spoke mainly Ukrainian, but also Russian. By twelve, I spoke Spanish (reviving it at 27 failed). I started with German in 1999, becoming fully fluent by twenty-eight, and my real English fluency started with 2010s, though I had it in schools.
In the past, I tried to study French, Chinese, and Japanese - to read poetry and to improve my calligraphic stroke, but I did not have enough time to achieve much.
In general, I could be described as partially liberal - for almost any personal choice that is not detrimental to others, and partially conservative - for the most part, fiscally, and definitely for maintaining and building upon what is good, especially for preserving ecosystems (wild life conservation), freedoms, beneficial institutions, cooperation, knowledge, and innovation.
⭕ Origins × 16
Before 1980s - family of origin, birthplace, circumstances.
Changing cultures taught me that people like to check where you came from to reduce their own barrier from your strangeness, and I am all for it. I love people's stories, and here is mine.
⭕ Childhood × 10
About 1980s - my early years of life, till onset of puberty.
⭕ Adolescence × 1
About 1990s - after puberty into early youth: my teenage years and my early twenties.
Adolescence, growing up, is a transitional stage of physical and psychological development.
⭕ Youth × 2
About 2000s - my determining years.
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